And sometimes things don't go as planned ...

With silly little things like posting to my blog ... and to the bigger things that weigh on my heart. Today is the day, the one that causes me to stumble, to lose hope, to be bitter and angry ... 19 months of this and yet, my heart is softer, my faith deeper, my compassion greater and really, I hope and pray that the following will be my sentiment in days, weeks and months to come ... whatever the outcome ...

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
And stepped in and saved the day
Once again, I say Amen, and it is still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear you whisper through the rain
I'm with you
As your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll Praise you in this storm
And I will lift my hands
You are who you are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will Praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find you

I lift my eyes into the hills
Where does my help come from
My help comes from the Lord
The maker of heaven and earth

Praise You in this Storm, Casting Crowns

Leaving you with this picture, that reminds me of the bright light in all of this. My little blessing who distracts me through these rough days ...